Alyssa Sellers

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Fascinating Rhythm

A few nights ago I video chatted with my brother and his family. My four-year-old niece, Claire, cracks me up. Over the past year, every time we video chat she says, “Auntie Lys, turn into to an apple.” Every time I reply with, “I’m sorry, Claire, I can’t turn into an apple.” To which she replies, “Well, what can you turn into?”

There was a twist during this chat because earlier Claire asked if I was fascinating. “Well, I like to think so,” I replied. “Are you fascinating, Claire?”

 “No,” she giggled, “what does it mean?”

“Well, it means that you are interesting and people want to know more about you.”

Claire & Macie ~ September 2011

So when Claire asked me what I can turn into, I said, “I can’t really turn into anything. All I can be is me, but I’m fascinating.”

“You are beautiful, Auntie Lys. You are beautiful and bright.”

“Thank you very much. Claire, you are a beautiful, bright and very fascinating girl and I love you very much.”

Children repeat what they are told. I am incredibly thankful that my niece is being told that she is beautiful and bright and funny and fascinating, and, perhaps most importantly, that she is loved.

How different would we be if we were constantly affirmed with the words of who we really are? And, even more so, if we believed them?


Express Yourself

Last year I wrote a book. No, it’s not published, but that does not discount the fact that I wrote it. It’s not perfect but I do think it should eventually be read by lots of people. So if I really like you or if I really want you to represent me, I’ll let you read it.

This year I’m writing a blog…and eating crow. Part of the blog creation process is picking out a profile photo. I chose a photo I took on my way back from the Oregon coast a week after my 30th Birthday. I was trying to capture a particularly profound moment. I tried smiling then I tried laughing. I ended up with the photo you see here:

So this photo I took: I don’t know how often I make this face or what I was thinking when I made it or if I think the same thing each time I make it. But, I have a feeling my friends and family might know. They see me, sometimes, much better than I see myself.

I think that’s why God gives us relationships, so we can better grasp reality. My version can be quite skewed sometimes. Thankfully, I’ve been given a wonderful collection of people who enable me to see the world through their various relationships with God and me. It’s a beautiful thing. Not a one of us is perfect or even close to it, but, together, we are working life out.

That’s what I think this photo is: a singular point in time when I knew truth. And that truth is captured in my understated expression: “This is me. This is it. I am currently certain of almost nothing in my life…but I am working life out.” That is what this blog is – life working itself out.